The Monkeybergs

 

When the world's horrors...

When the world's horrors get particularly intense and the cries of the suffering are ringing in my ears and the blood splatter is right in my face, I sometimes feel guilt and disgust over the mere fact that my life goes on and the planets of my existence continue in their orbits.  

Some fundamental decency would require the Universe to pause and retch and take some oxygen before moving on.

The human capacity for standing up after falling down is wondrous and deserves a standing ovation. Evolution has given us scars as the answer to injury. Thank god for renewal's potion of forgetfulness. 

But this resilience and all that it implies in averted gaze and suits of emotional armor seems perverse at the same time.  

How dare I laugh, how dare I hum a tune, how dare I feel hungry so soon after the atrocities and the disasters inflict their punishment on our collective spirits!   

That's why the rituals of mourning and celebration of lost lives are so important, the hand-drawn placards, teddy bears and flowers at the scene of tragedy, whispers of condolence and hope to the survivors, to one another. The solidarity of resistance and transformation. Even on social media.  

You are my minyan and quorum, dear friends.  Thank you!" -- Facebook post, 18 March 2019

With nerves coming out of my body

by Jaime Sabines (translation by Robert David Cohen)

With nerves coming out of my body like rags,

like straws from an old broom,

and the bundle of my soul on the floor, still crawling,

everything exhausted, more than my own legs,

tired of using my heart every day,

here I am on this bed, at this hour,

waiting for the collapse

the imminent fall that will bury me.

(Close your eyes as if to sleep

Mustn’t move a leaf of your body.

This can happen at any moment:

Be quiet now.

Handkerchiefs of air turn slowly

heavy shadows scrape the walls,

the sky sucks you through the ceiling.)

Tomorrow you’ll have to get up again

to walk among people.

And you will love the sun and the cold,

the cars, the trains,

the dress shops and the stables,

the walls where lovers are pasted

like decals when evening falls,

the lonely parks where misfortune strolls,

head hanging, and where dreams sit down to rest

and some guy reaches for love under a skirt

while an ambulance siren marks the hour

to enter death’s factory.

You will love the miraculous city and, inside her, the field of dreams,

the river of avenues lit by so many people wanting the same thing,

the open doors of bars, the surprises of bookstores,

the flower shop, the barefoot kids

who don’t want to be heroes of misery,

and the awnings, the advertisements,

the rush of people going nowhere.

You’ll love the asphalt and the skylights

and the drainage pumps and cranes

and the palaces and luxury hotels

and the lawns of homes with guard dogs

and two or three people who are also going to die.

You will love the smell of food stands

attracting the hungry like beacons every night,

and your head will spin around to the perfume

a woman leaves hanging in the air like a boa.

And you’ll love the amusement parks

where the poor go for vertigo and laughter,

and the zoo where everyone feels important,

and the hospital where pain creates more brothers

than poverty can make,

and the daycare centers where children are playing,

and everywhere tenderness sprouts like a stalk

and every last thing has you saying thank you.

Run your hand over the furniture’s skin,

wipe off the dust you let fall on the mirrors.

Everywhere, seeds want to be born.

(Like a scarlet fever, life will suddenly burst from you.)

From Poemas sueltos (1951 - 1961)

For Rachel

Just insert Rachel where you see

World. Where you see

Time. Where you see

Life. Just insert Rachel where you see

Apricot. Where you see

Death.

Insert Rachel exactly where she was standing

Just a minute ago.

At least let her wash her hands

Before saying goodbye.

Break open a headline for her every morning

Feature her on the front page above the fold

Weeping and laughing

Casting a shaft of light

Across bad news.

Now that she’s not here

Rachel might as well be

Everywhere.

Now that she’s not one

She might as well be

Many.

She might as well be

Tuning forks and weather forecasts

Oxygen for heartbeats

And pandemics

She might as well be

Those young beauties painting the sky

Midwifing today because there’s no

Tomorrow.

Lost and Founds are everywhere

So just lose her and find her

Empty handed refugee

Overflowing with riches.

Sing in the chorus of Rachel’s scars

Surrender to the pull of

Gravities she never intended to exert

Dan, take her unused health

A few of her unlived hours will be mine

Unwritten chapters for everyone

All her sweet and impossible to-do’s.

And why not just be her

Be her and every good and kind not-Rachel

Be the solid girl

Left standing in the center

After the fall of the nested Russian dolls.

Hold out your bottomless basket

For gifts she wrapped in life and now must bestow

In death.

The wheel of sparks she spun is still spinning

The seed of power she planted is sprouting

For you now

Whatever you are now.

What’s a catastrophic aortic dissection from root to iliac

In the grand scheme of things anyway?

There’s still time for her

Specificity in the world

A green inch for her in the Secret Garden

A wave for her particle to surf

Deep into the lives of her grandsons.

Rachel, read to me aloud from the book

Of your 72 years

Every night before bed

I’m listening!

The book with 41 chapters you honored me with

And I will massage your feet

Preparing for our dream.

New York, 3 September 2021

Two fragments transcribed from a dream

You chose me

Because I was beautiful

You said you smelled me

A mile away

Purple and red you opened

I lapped up on your beach

Foam on a blue wave

***

You died while making quesadillas

You had just turned off the flame

The heat of the pan doing its work

The cheese melting

The tortilla crisping

You dead

What you were in the middle of

The flame off

Heat in the pan working

What you were in the middle of

You lost

You found

Now in the heat of the work

                -- New York, July 9, 2017

Discovery '65 Poetry Reading

Mark Strand, Jim Harrison, Nancy Sullivan and Robert David Cohen reading their poetry at the Discovery 65 award event.

I'm up first...


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Poetry I recorded at the Harvard Lamont Poetry Library in 1966

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To a friend with Alzheimer’s

Everything is falling
Off the edge of everything

I stand at attention and salute
As he spins into darkness

Everything now a filigree of gold
Lifted by a breeze

Fragile fragile fragile

He is humming
Ever singing

                                -- New York City, 5 May 2015

I am Charlie Hebdo

I'm in bed

Thinking of waking

When the day breaks in

Wearing a balaclava

Carrying a Kalashnikov

Shouting my name

Charlie Hebdo

Now that I count my years

On a hand

I say to myself 

I can banish fear

Now that my bed launches me

Into orbits of delight

And peals of laughter

Charlie Hebdo

I know now there’s beauty enough

In the world

To fashion ten billion eyes

Strength enough to wield ten billion pens

I refuse to surrender

I will be the mocking storm

As they place stones on me like a tomb

I will take my little life to the world

                                    -- New York, January 8, 2015

Gran Frijolada

-- for Idelfonso Ramos on the anniversary of his death

Here we are

My brother

It’s time it’s that time again

For the gran frijolada

The yearly mess of beans

I cook up Cuban-style

In your honor

The beans are soaking

My secret ingredient is ready

Here we are

You are on the other side

Resolviendo

Getting done whatever it is

That gets done

On the lush island that is death

On the isle of memory and grateful forgetting

Always 90 miles

Always an inch away

There you are

Still making the documentary of your life

And me

The gringo whose life you saved

With a couch and an abrazo

I’ve still got one foot

Planted and dancing in the dirt of time

The other

Where else?

In my mouth

That won’t stop singing

Here we are

A celebration that must always be improvised  

Motivito to welcome some minute arrived from afar

From thin air you pull

An armful of icy beers

Like rabbits from a magician’s hat

Son de la Loma

Blasting from the cassette player

Heard all down the street

The neighbors dancing too

Heard by lovers

As far off

As the malecón

I can hear it again now

Trio Matamoros

Who wouldn’t dance in your presence?

Your shadow dancing

With a permanent

Smile and hard-on

Stars and cancer everywhere

Here we are

Here we are

Idel

Dumbstruck and far flung

Shipwrecked and rescued

Sheer luck everywhere

Full of beans and magic

                        -- New York, 31 December 2013